Ah life. Why doest thou throw me curve balls?
For the past year, I have been ROCKIN' it! My brand new art biz is 'profitable', my People Helping Pets holiday project has been an amazing success - with all sorts of miracles conspiring in my favor.
Then, BAM! Extreme financial distress! Panic! Cash out 401k! Sell the cats! (not really).
I attempt a Valentines Day promotion - Nuthin'.
The ride's not over yet, but I've had some real clarity for myself, in my relationship, in the possibilities the universe provides. I look for 'what is it that I don't know that I don't know"? We're talking SERIOUS blind spots!
So I check my mirrors (my friends and hubby), look to some wonderful financial guides; Karen Russo, Kate Northrup,...
I Get out my budget sheet, fess up about my resentments (which totally take me out of the game of powerfully getting where I want to be), pull up my big girl panties and take the next step.
Thank you -
Thank you to my darling husband Frank for the many way he supports my happiness, my art biz, my personal healing and growth - and having FUN!
Thank you to my goddess girlfriends who encourage me, see me through my dark / snotty times, celebrate my art, my happiness, my unique way of being in the world...
Thank you to the wonderful artists and shop owners who have been so incredibly generous to me in creating ways for me to live my dreams - making art, becoming and "artrepreneur", expanding and honoring myself and my gifts...
And Thank you to the incredible resources and groups of people through whom I learn, and encouraged, held accountable and supported - Landmark Education, Alanon, Java Journalers, Judith Cassel-Mamet, Madeline, the Amazing Biz & Life Academy, and now I've just started the Art Biz Coach Bootcamp!
Wow! I am so blessed and feeling the love!
(which is also, BTW, the best 'prayer' in the world!)
What a joy to 'just do it' and have it all turn out beautifully and with bonus added opportunities arising!
It's so easy to be filled with self doubt, to let your old, naysayer stories stop you in your tracks.
It's uncomfortable, sometimes, moving through that fear anyway. AND - it's amazing, what is there on the other side!
A deep sense of completion, fulfillment, happiness! All this has actually taken a while to sink in in a profound way.
I count my blessings everyday - as a practice. And I don't even do that perfectly. I count them even when they don't look like blessings. Often it seems somewhat pointless to keep up this practice. Now, however, I have a sense that I can experience my true blessings (which may of the gritty/learning variety) and my exciting blessings more fully and deeply. They touch me more and add to a more solid sense of myself.
I'm excited for my unfolding journey AND for this moment right now.
I thought about saying, "Saying yes VS discernment" but thought better of it. I mean, it could be both.
I said yes to doing the Lucky Dog Art show and fundraiser. A great opportunity for me not only to get on with doing more art, but also combining two of my biggest passions; art and helping homeless, unloved animals.
I had decided I was going to focus on art in my life and yet I offered a People Helping Pets slideshow to the event.
That's the career that I'm supposedly NOT focusing on right now.
But how can I not do something that EXACTY fits the situation and is a passion for me?
So I offered.
And as soon as I was finished with the art for the show and had that delivered, I worked on the slideshow.
And I LOVED IT!
I was really happy with the aesthetic of it, and the new, simpler format.
It took a while to remember the shortcuts I had used before, but I searched my old notes and looked up new answers and it was all fantastic in the end.
I was so excited when I had got it all done. I couldn't believe how quickly I got through it.
Of course when Im working like that I'm glued to the project - on a mission- no food or calls or bathroom breaks. In the flow of creating!
SO, of course, my computer started fussing a bit and then...
You guessed it- lost a whole days work. Aaaaarrrrggh!
It was late, I was tired. And stressed. I still had to check my equipment to pull the whole thing off...
But I decided - there's no way I was gonna sleep anyway, and spent the next few hours recreating what I had lost.
I'm thrilled with the result.
I'm glad I stayed up and did it. It was energizing and relaxing to have it finished.
I love being 'at one' with the project like that - and like I do when I'm making art.
Saying yes- discerning - being willing to see if the universe is trying to help me go in the right direction - or if it's me distracting myself???
In this case - I wasn't sure so I just went for it. ANd I can see that it's all good. And refocus on art as I have promised myself.
And if this event leads to more opportunities for People Helping Pets. I will say yes - with discernment. And love.
I've been working on art and getting my studio set up at the same time.
Seems like it would be kinda crazy, but it's actually working out quite well.
I was thinking that I needed to find my Xacto knife. I thought I had it in my office somewhere. But as I unpacked one of my bins labeled Art Stuff, I found the GOOD Xacto! And a bunch of other cool stuff that will come in handy.
I've committed to spending time every day working on art. That includes working on the studio too. Yesterday I got the doors insulated. The night before that I got out the drill and some hardware and fixed the door so that it opens and closes more easily and keeps more of the cold out.
All this just in the knick of time as I watch the snow continue - after already getting about 5 inches!
Life is good.
Having the commitment to just do something, gets me over the hump of resistance. And once I begin creating
Just start doing whatever art comes out.
Sometimes I just feel like I have to many ideas, too many interests.
Today, I will create some art.
Might be great- might not, but at least
I SHOWED UP for myself - doing one of he things that feels so good - so ME !
Here I go! Can’t wait to see what happens!
I dream of making art, of seeing all pets in loving homes. of people with healthy playful lives, dancing, smiling
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